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Fear Filter

by Means and Ways

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1.
there's a man on the screen, there are eyes on the wall, strawberry martini hovers over carpet tall. new voice in a room, new voice in a room. there's a boy looking blue, his mother looks confused, heroes on a poster hover over afternoons. new voice in a room, new voice in a room.
2.
Another Year 03:24
jesus don't lie to me, i heard them say, leaving the park, hope they're okay. biking down chrystie street, the leaves all glow, bus hangs a left, so i go slow. and you can't go back, of course i know that. i'll live my life, of stress and strain, we love the earth, we try to stay, another year something inside me said, to move along, message received, already gone. somewhere in chinatown, that's where my bike broke down, and i walked home for miles. i'll live my life, of stress and strain, we love the earth, we try to stay, another year
3.
like a silent atom bomb, hit the center of town, we are all just waiting for our, lives to come round. so i'll meet you at the corner, when the sunset meets black mayonnaise, guess i'm getting older, while the world remains the same. like a silent film we saw, down the street from our block, we are all just walking round like, hands on a clock. so I'll meet you at the drawbridge, when the heat lamps light propane. guess I'm getting older, while the world remains the same. only seem to spend my days, sighing at the closed cafes and, waiting out, train delays, with you.
4.
Hollow 03:42
I am trying to be hollow, Like I was when I was young, Haven't got the time to borrow, Underneath the setting sun. I am trying to be hollow, Like a child without woe. The world is dark, I need a light, That shines when I am all alone. when i'm afraid, I am afraid, That I will be, Always this way. I am trying to be hollow, Though I know I never was, The world is dark, I need a light, That shines when I am all alone. When I'm afraid, I am afraid, That I will be, Always this way.
5.
Stardust 04:09
stardust comes together, if only for a little while, and when start dust falls apart, you don't have to fake a smile. nothing's created, or destroyed, yet I'm frightened of the void. so much I'll never know, though I'm learning slow, how to breathe. stardust finds other stardust, and tries to hold on so long, and when stardust bond is gone, you don't have to be alone. nothing's created, or destroyed, yet I'm frightened of the void. so much I'll never know, though I'm learning slow, how to breathe.
6.
Time to Go 05:30
see you wave bye, I don't have to drive, see you in the fall, we'll be sure to call when we, get back home. wish I could get back to bed, the morning sky is blue and red, it's time to go. always saying, you shouldn't work so hard, what a way to live, got such love to give to me, and now I see. wish we'd stay another day, the road back home is white and grey, it's time to go. the wind was calling, you away, I am here. the car was stalling, I should pray, you are near me. see you smiling, never stay for long, always work to do, rather talk to you, for hours around the kitchen table, when the cows are in their stables. my stomach's weak from little rest, I'll leave the lights I love the best, it's time to go. see you wave bye, would you look at the time? sun is overhead, what else can be said, when years have past and made us cry, memories can't disappear. oh see you go out rear window, I'll leave you but I won't be gone for long. all the love left in the heart collects somewhere beneath the stars, it's time to go. the wind was calling, you away, I am here. the car was stalling, I should pray, you are near me.
7.
Leaving Home 03:56
When I cried to myself, And I had, No one else, I'll admit, I was scared. Trotted ground, hold me now, When I'm here I'm safe and sound, Safe and sound. By the time I had figured out, How to be alone and live among the doubt, I was, not the boy you knew when I was leaving home, Leaving home. So I left my friends, so I could start again, They all know where I will be. So I followed you, and you followed me, On our way, To the place we want to be. By the time I had figured out, How to be alone and live among the doubt, I was, not the boy you knew when I was leaving home, Hold me in your arms and I will never have to go, I have to go. Holding on to everything, Everything at once, On the phone, you were already home, in my heart.
8.
maybe half the time, I'm on the straight and narrow, I could change my mind, I could be a scarecrow now, I could be a lot like that, I could be a lot like that. wake me up in time, I am tired of thinking, I will fall in line, though my feelings haven't changed. I could be a lot like that, I could be a lot like that. I'm alone, with my phone, But I could really use a person. No they're not the same. I could be a lot like that, I could be a lot like that.
9.
faded books in a storefront window, all about 2000s america, architecture by frank lloyd wright, all exposed to direct light. wind sweeps over ancient prairies, kept alive by a child from bavaria, holding beauty between burnings, birds at rest, rest their wings. oh now that day is done, when I was alone, I was alone. oh now that day is done, when I was alone, I was alone. remembering September sun. freight train blocks the intersection, crossing gate blinks and stays down till the caboose, people walk parallel to tracks, drivers wait, to hit the gas. oh now that day is done, when I was alone, I was alone. oh now that day is done, when I was alone, I was alone. remembering September sun. bikes speed along fresh water, fisherman keeps a can filled with dirt and worms, architecture by frank lloyd wright, all exposed to direct light.

about

"Fear Filter", the album that has been "a few months away" for the past five years, is finally here.

This album was written during a period in my life where I came to terms with a panic attack disorder. I was searching for ways to deal with the 500 pound bear in the room (or to see past the fear filter, if you will), and it informed many of the songs on this record. (PSA: daily meditation has done wonders for my mental health)

I wrote and performed most of the record myself, and I took an active role in producing the songs. My home office slowly morphed into a home recording studio, and I had plenty of Sweetwater candy.

In my mind's eye, this album is a bit like a house. I came up with a blueprint, but it would have been impossible to build without the help of friends.

Victor provided the foundation and structure with his drums. Pete and Brendan papered the house with Grateful Dead posters with their keys and bass work. Frank helped me knock out a wall or two with his production, and provided some guitar to make things feel fresh. And Kaia's vocals provided some much needed lighting to brighten the place up.

This strained metaphor aside, I'm discovering a large part of releasing a record is letting go. I think if you're not careful you can work on songs forever. But I think the songs are ready for their open house. Hope you enjoy.

Quinn

November 2023

credits

released November 3, 2023

quinn mongeon - vox, background vox, guitar, synth, bass, drum machine on 9, shakers, lap steel on 6, piano on 9
victor lum - drums, shakers, gong, tambourine
peter debartolo - piano, organ, synth, vibes
brendan finn - bass on 4, 7, 8
kaia kalise - vox on 6, 9
frank heinrich - lead guitar on 6
jesse kristin - tambourine on 1
katie von schleicher - synth on 9

thanks to riley difford for the bass inspo for 1 & 2

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tracks 1, 2, 5, 6 recorded by nate mendelsohn at figure 8 recording in brooklyn, ny

tracks 4, 7, 8 recorded and mixed by ryan ball at the gearbox recording studio in paramus, nj

track 9 recorded by katie von schleicher at figure 8 recording in brooklyn, ny

track 3 and additional overdubs recorded by nate mendelsohn and katie von schleicher at shitty hits recording co in brooklyn, ny

additional piano, organ, & mellotron recording by lily wen at figure 8 recording in brooklyn, ny

tracks 1, 2, 3, 5, 6 mixed by nate mendelsohn
tracks 2, 9 mixed by adam brisbin

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mastered by carl saff

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thank you to everyone who helped make my dream a reality

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